I began to experience disillusionment with conservative evangelical Christianity about 15 years ago, during college, and it became unavoidable after college. I never had a desire to abandon my Christian faith altogether though. There was a gut sense that there was something within the tradition I could still connect with.
I know this sounds like a paradox—the joy of surrendering. But I swear by it. I recently experienced the overwhelming joy that comes from surrendering to an unfavorable situation and want to share my story with you.
I’ve alluded a lot to how much resistance I’ve experienced towards my calling as a minister. Part of the reason for this is because I grew up in a conservative Korean Christian community where women weren’t allowed to be ordained.
I believe I’ve shared before that I hate being confused about big life situations. For a time, I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life and it was excruciating for me to wait in the unknown. My husband makes fun of me because this plays out in minor areas of my life where I actually do have control.
Before and after my child came into the world, my husband and I were inundated with advice from parents. Here’s the best way to sleep train, one would say. Baby led weaning instead of purees is best, another would say.
I’m currently reading You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay and finding so many gems. The premise of this book is that most physical illnesses stem from emotional roots. She doesn’t believe all illnesses can be cured through spiritual/emotional healing but her own story is one where she did in fact cure herself of cancer through forgiveness and claiming her worth and power.
As we near our annual love day tomorrow, I thought I’d take a moment to write about sex today; sex from a progressive Christian standpoint; sex from the standpoint of one who has further developed her thoughts from the rigid and restrictive teachings about sex she was taught growing up.